29 today...

It's my birthday today and with everything feeling like it's so up in the air at the moment with regards to my relationship and my future, I have decided to take some inspiration from the wonderful Susannah Conway and make a list of 30 things i'd like to do before i'm 30 (though i'm sure Susannah's list was slightly longer *wink* ). So for the past week i've been busy thinking about the small and not so small things i'd like to accomplish in the next year before the big 30 arrives on my doorstep. I plan to revisit this post throughout the year and tick off those things i've achieved and i'm sure i'll be blogging about my experiences along the way. So here's my list, why not make up one of your own?

30 things to do before I'm 30:
1. Meditate
2. Drink more water
3. Update my blog regularly
4. Learn to play the didgeridoo
5. Read more books
6. Eat healthily
7. Buy myself only beautiful clothes that I love
8. Take more photographs
9. Buy a polaroid camera
10. Make home-made Christmas gifts for my family
11. Learn to crochet
12. Relax
13. Rediscover myself
14. Spend more time with my friends and family
15. Try a new recipe once a month
16. De-clutter my home
17. Deepen my understanding of the Tarot
18. Make soap
19. Turn my house into a home
20. Do my reiki second degree
21. Recycle
22. Buy a new car
23. Exercise more
24. Grow my own vegetables
25. Find a career that I'm passionate about
26. Worry less
27. See Tim Minchin live
28. Buy a plum tree for my garden
29. Work through "A Creative Guide to Exploring Your Life"
30. Experiment with affirmations

Right, now to the important stuff - cake anyone?

Dreaming...

I have strange dreams, it's agreed between my family and friends that the majority of my dreams fall into the catergory of being weird or bizarre and they're often quite dark. I've been waking up at about 4am recently, it's frustrating as I tend to fall back to sleep around 6am and then I don't wake up until about 9am - luckily i'm on holiday so this isn't too much of a problem.

When 4am reared it's head this morning, so did I, and a vague recollection of dream-speak circled through my mind - "And you'll know it's me because it will be written in my voice". I can't remember much of the dream, only that I was going to leave a message for someone written on a wall. I've found myself intrigued by this statement as it has raised some questions which fit quite snugly with where I feel I currently am in my life, namely: What is my voice? and What does it say?

I've recently separated from my partner of 9 and a half years and as a result have found that I have lots of time on my own. As i've tried to ignore the hours ticking slowly by and the impending silence, i've started to question who I am and what I want from life. I suppose you could say, in dream-speak, that i'm trying to find my voice, a voice that represents me as an individual but also a voice that I will need to use to express my needs and viewpoints when myself and my partner eventually come back together to discuss whether we try and repair our relationship or whether we go our separate ways. So in a way my voice, the voice I adopt now, is new to me as it's coming from a different place, one in which I need to form my thoughts alone rather than from a shared viewpoint.

So now is the time for me to discover my voice and discover who I am. I think it's going to be an exciting journey.

Beary things

When I have enough time on my hands I like to make bears. I don't make many during the year simply because it takes quite a lot of time and committment to get them finished and, being a butterfly by nature, I tend to lose the flow and become distracted by other things. But there really is nothing quite like seeing a little beary character emerging and unravelling before your eyes, it's quite magical. No two bears are ever the same, even if I tried to make them the same by using the same pattern and fabric, they still manage to evolve into something different, developing their own personality along the way. The little chap above is Coleman, a bear I made about 5 years ago, who is now living with his new owner in Australia. At the moment I find myself wishing I was there with him too so that I can escape this dreary, rainy weather - can I order some sunshine for tomorrow please?

The first tentative step...

Welcome to my blog, my own little bit of cyberspace where I hope to share snippets of my life and things of beauty that I happen to stumble across - such as the beautiful artwork of FreyaArt who I only discovered yesterday but who has already captured my heart with her quirky style and inspirational quotes. The print below is one of my favorites, I can't imagine anyone who wouldn't like to be told that they are a "strange and magnificent creature". Strangely enough no-one has ever said this to me, but I think I might have to make it my daily mantra and say it to myself as a way of celebrating my own strange magnificence. maybe you should too?